12/18/96

Hi Buckley again,

The question is, "Why did he tour and not tell us where he was playing?
Why why why?
And the answer is this: There was a time in my life not too long ago
when I could show up in a cafe and simply do what I do, make music, learn
from performing my music, explore what it means to me, ie have fun while I
irritate and/or entertain an audience who doesn't know me or what I am
about. In this situation I have that precious and irreplacable luxury of
failure, or risk, or surrender. I worked very hard to get this kind of thing
together, this work-forum. I loved it then and I missed it when it
disappeared. All I am doing is reclaiming it.
Don't worry about the phantom solo tours, they are simply my way of survival
and my own method of self-assessment and recreation. If they don't
happen....nothing else can. I can at least be all alone with nothing to help
me save myself. Real men maintain their freedom to suck eggs, my dear.
I'm in the middle of some wild shit right now... Please be patient, I'm
coming soon to a cardboard displaycase near you and I'll come out of my hole
and we'll make bonfires out of ticketstubs come the summer.

Merry Christmas all and
a kiss for your New Year's headache.

Bye.

Jeff